DARK TIMES

It is in the darkest humor that my pain lays,

It is in my jokes that the truth lays,

 So deep inside I’m a walk of shame,

Deep inside I’m a combination of full blast Rockford and pioneer speakers.

I’m that stone besides the waterbed, hard but slippery.

But, have you ever put on your headphones and the lyrics started sounding bitter than they should? When all the jokes you laugh about are deep stories that you couldn’t imagine of, when the depressed side of my story becomes funnier than your real life, but all I can do is smile more than a toothpaste advert.

The absurd thing is that at the caliginous time of the night is when I see clearly, this is the time that I realize my mind is a dangerous place none of you want to be in. A world of roars of roars and screams, a world of numbness, a weak unsteady and wonky world. The kind of world that prods your soul with devilry and darkness. This is when you feel fear and strength at the same time but neither defines you. We all bleed the same color I bet, but inside here you just never stop bleeding.

When you feel you don’t want to close your eyes because when you close them you walk right into another world, another darkest episode of Harry Potter and all you have to do is quote him “DARK TIMES LIES AHEAD OF US AND THERE WILL BE A TIME WHERE YOULL HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN WHAT IS EASY AND WHAT IS RIGHT.” Apparently in here you have to choose between what is gloomy and what is dark. So let me tell you a little secret, the devil is real and he is not a little red man with horns and tail, he can be beautiful and charming, and he will always be there waiting for you with open arms, but it’s up to you to decide whether you will run to him or from him, but it doesn’t matter at all coz he will haunt you.

So what if the eyes were projectors of our own minds?? Then I guess all of us would have different stories to see and different demons to help fight, so we all have dark sides that haunt us down and none of us want to talk about them. There comes a time that all you need is a hug, no words, no advice, over 6 billion souls in the world but sometimes all you need is just one hug from one soul, but once you have been in the dark you will learn to appreciate everything that shines.

So, let’s flip a coin now, let it all go, see what stays, just let go off the shit that suffocates your soul, let go off the shit that drowns you and hold you down. Be great full for the changes that saved your soul from years of pain. I thought of all the beauty left around me and I embraced my demons. The world that broke me and the tears that sank me helped me build this boat that led me to an island I’ve never seen before and the river I sailed on is now running with all my secrets, my derelict soul is now healing, nothing is ever like we imagine it, maybe that’s a terrible beautiful thing. So train the wolf in your heart to never let the world see the Lamb in your soul. We are all wet in the inside, we all have that fire that consumes us from within but remember Inceptions do not matter at all, just focus on your epilogues.